Going against the grain here. The only person who can help you is you. A good therapist can help you realize that earlier too.
You're going to get many perspectives of how you can help yourself in this thread, some will resonate and some won't at all.
Facing your longing for happiness and reason may be the very thing preventing you from obtaining it. Sometimes in order to understand the world, one has to turn away from it on occasion.
In other words, you have to listen to yourself in terms of how to turn your life around. Maybe even the fear of being successful paralyzes you from beginning.
You're going to get many perspectives of how you can help yourself in this thread, some will resonate and some won't at all.
Facing your longing for happiness and reason may be the very thing preventing you from obtaining it. Sometimes in order to understand the world, one has to turn away from it on occasion.
In other words, you have to listen to yourself in terms of how to turn your life around. Maybe even the fear of being successful paralyzes you from beginning.