Indeed. Not only that, but it can be a lived experience. One sees that the need for something called "time" is actually an invention of the mind, and totally unnecessary. I know this sounds bizarre and like mystical woo-woo, but when it's seen, it's the simplest and most obvious thing in the world.
"Just" partial differential equations of complex fields for Schrodinger; the fourier transform to shift between, what was it, momentum and position?; matricies and/or quaternions for the Bloch sphere; bra-ket notation; and the Hermitian, Hamiltonian, and Laplacian operators.
Of these, the only one I did in my double maths A-level was matricies and partial differential equations of single dimensional real functions, and the absolute basics of what complex numbers are.
Seems like it needs a degree to me, having tried to teach myself using brilliant.org
That's me. One of the hardest parts is that people assume I'm just lazy, because how else could someone be as out of shape as I am? But the truth is that I love intense exercise, and even still try to do it. The body just doesn't respond any more.
Yep. People think I'm exaggerating when I say I've developed dementia. It's pretty intense (and terrifying) on the inside, but I've found ways to compensate to appear vaguely normal on the outside. Look, I'm even using multisyllabic words here!
I also have the profound cardiovascular deconditioning described in other comments. So many hopes dreams flushed down the toilet, but people assume that I'm just lazy and stupid. My heart goes out to the millions with this condition who aren't as privileged as I am. At least I have savings and family to fall back on (as well as a large cognitive reserve).
> So many hopes dreams flushed down the toilet, but people assume that I'm just lazy and stupid.
Reminds me of:
> The culprit behind “the germ of laziness,” as the South’s affliction was sometimes called, was Necator americanus —the American murderer. Better known today as the hookworm, millions of those bloodsucking parasites lived, fed, multiplied, and died within the guts of up to 40% of populations stretching from southeastern Texas to West Virginia. Hookworms stymied development throughout the region and bred stereotypes about lazy, moronic Southerners.
When were you sick? March 2020 here and while cognitively I have been ok, my heart and lungs are all messed up. Four years, three primary doctors, five cardiologists, over a dozen tests and still no real answers.
I tested as borderline COPD, given an inhaler and my lung tests improved dramatically, well into healthy range. However even with the inhaler I still get that "air hunger" sensation and the feeling like I cannot get a full breath in.
Oddly I got COVID this past July and most of my heart/lung symptoms disappeared the day before being sick, and did not return until a week or two after I recovered. I have heard this before in the LC community going back years.
Jan 2022 for me. I also have the "air hunger" sensation, but it comes in spurts. I was also perscribed an inhaler, and have used it a few times, but it doesn't seem to have much of an impact.
The brain fog is hardest to describe. One symptom is that I confuse things much more easily now. It's like the resolution on concepts has gone way down. Instead of remembering a specific fact about a specific country (that I recently learned and resolved to commit to memory), for example, it's "some Middle Eastern country... or maybe it was African, but somewhere over there... did this thing where... something medical. Or maybe scientific." It makes socializing really hard. While using my multimeter recently, I convinced myself that voltage and resistance were the same thing, because they both fell into the "electrical" bucket in my brain. Even scarier, the double-checking mechanism failed, so that I didn't detect the absurdity for a while. It only resulted in a blown fuse, but I can imagine this kind of confusion having much more serious consequences.
As for physically, I just get winded much more easily -- and it's not the kind of winded I used to get, where if I pushed through, my body might complain but gear up to meet the challenge anyway. I just hit a brick wall where my heart and lungs won't give any more, either immediately or over the long run.
I've seen a mild improvement cognitively lately, though not sure why.
There were several others on that team with similar (or greater) degrees of insight and execution, none of whom got paid anywhere near that kind of bonus.
Very likely! Compensation at that level, in a company with this much power concentration, is not driven by much else than the owner's perception of what is beneficial to the business, however skewed it might be from the recognition of actual contribution.
I'm trying to be as vague as possible here so as not to identify myself, but I knew him fairly well. I can tell you it wasn't just a mistake. Anthony doesn't have the same... qualms as you and I.
Yeah, I've never met the guy and I'm always careful about trusting media reports directly in this kind of a witch hunt, but goddamn he spent at least 10 years double-dealing and behaving with incredibly poor ethics.
He might be good at the self-driving car stuff or he might not, I have no idea, but I wouldn't trust him with a ham sandwich.
I've heard this multiple times on this board, and given his public behavior, he definitely fits some of the 'lack of consciousness' traits of a sociopath.
Sorry but I have a hard time considering your comment a meaningful contribution to the thread, since it is extremely common for people to #metoo with 20-20 hindsight about other people. The more lurid the details the stronger their conviction.
This Uber-Waymo affair has devolved into absolute tabloid-level nonsense and we should all collectively be ashamed of it.
Levandowski made it clear on more than one occasion of his admiration of some explicitly sociopathic tendencies. More than a few people noticed and talked about it. I'm not sure anyone did anything -- except, perhaps, his nanny apparently.
There's a bigger conversation in there I'd like to have, but I haven't sorted it out in my own mind, and I'm sweating even writing this much.
What exactly are you sharing? It's not illegal to be an asshole. It's also not important to anyone that you knew him years ago and think he's an asshole, so where is the schadenfreude coming from?
