You are trying to impose an impossible burden on me, and I have no choice but to reject it. I realize that from your point of view, the claim that "I can just feel it" is unsatisfactory, but that really is the essence of it all.
If your are sincerely curious meditation and/or drugs may be a path.
If the burden of proof is impossible to fulfill then you have by definition made an unfalsifiable claim, so your claim can be discarded immediately. "I can just feel it" does not stand as evidence because it is subjective. The only justifiable position you can currently take is "I do not know."
If your are sincerely curious meditation and/or drugs may be a path.