This resonates with me as well and that is the reason I never stuck to taking uppers. They do get me doing certain tasks that I normally don't care much about but the downside is too much. I resort to it only when I have to do something that I dread but need to get done and that is rare. My mind also works something like stumble upon and I enjoy it a lot as well. I never bore of being by myself, I always find something exciting to think of or do.