It's not fair of me to put it all on that. I have role in that too. All I can do is reflect on all that I could change within myself. I've come to a place where I feel I have compromised my integrity to belong to something that I never really was allowed to be in. I didn't go to school and learn C. I was too poor for that. To far already broken as a run away adult at 14. I found coding at the age of 16ish but I then ignored it till I was in a place stable enough in my life where I could learn it on my own. That didn't come till I was about 23, and at that time at best I was working fast food. I'm 43 now and I peaked my income this last year, but I don't ever see that happening again. Frankly I don't want the money. I want a life. The money was just getting me to a place in my life now where most in IT got to start at. I had a lot of damage to repair over the years. A whole other life long past. I just got my first adult couch and bed that I paid for with my own money not some second hand used thing.
The science of scarcity destroys any happiness you could have had. Its a privilege many over look. That said I'm not a victim, that was my bed and I laid in it. The best I can offer you in that is I try to look towards empathy in the people I see in my community who are in a much worse off place. I now know so much better now how truly privilege I've been. I'll never be that ignorant if I can help it. Thats a big part of the reason why I want out of tech now because its just not me. Its a different world of egos. I don't want to sit next to the dude who orders a $200 stake with cheesecake on it. I would rather sit next to a disable homeless adult man so they knew their not really alone. I can't even fucking explain that to dude eating that stake next to me. Thats when I have to face myself. And your right not all the issues I've listed are exclusive.
As I said in some other post, you can just work a tech job for a year and buy several years of freedom with it. You can even work a part-time Uber during that time - but from a position of freedom, not economic neccessity.
