I do sympathize with your experience. It reminds me that one of the frustations when experienced programmers encountered Smalltalk back-in-the-day was often expressed as — Where's the program?

Maybe you wanted to step through like this (and then go explore by yourself):

https://cuis-smalltalk.github.io/TheCuisBook/Writing-your-fi...

https://cuis-smalltalk.github.io/TheCuisBook/A-brief-introdu...